Neville describes returning to New York in 1934, after roughly three 'heavenly months' in Barbados, transformed and no longer living under the strict self-denial he had practiced before -- he began drinking and smoking again, doing things he had avoided 'for years.' He credits his teacher Abdullah's earlier counsel that proving the law meant becoming normal again rather than performing holiness, and describes himself thereafter as a changed man walking the earth, though he admits he did not always succeed afterward in staying faithful to that ideal.