And the whole vast world is seeking it from without. They go into diets and say, “You know I don’t eat meat. Well then, I’m more holy than the other one who eats meat. If I don’t do this and don’t do that and don’t do the other”… and they go into all these things trying to acquire merit. I go across the country to find those who I thought heard it, didn’t really hear. One told me in New York City last year she is going to prove to me I’m wrong, and she’s going to actually do it by sheer Imagination, by proving that she can conjure this. Then she joined some yoga society and she went off…she has all the money in the world…to indulge herself she went off to do meditations. This past week I got a very, oh, sad letter from a close friend of the family’s who sees her in her household in this mental state of decline. Her husband doesn’t know what has happened to her, her sons are all despairing, and she herself doesn’t know. But she doesn’t remember what I told her, “You try it and keep on doing it, and you’ll only go where all go who think they can earn salvation. It is all grace, grace, grace and still more grace. You don’t earn it.”363 ¶21