And may I tell you, several years ago she went through a state where she entertained not any violent exit but did entertain among her feelings from a feeling of weakness that she hadn’t long here and she seriously entertained the feeling of death. In fact, she made preparations with her effects, to whom they would go, this, that and the other, she was so serious about the exit from this world. So she held the hand of death. We personify it.302 ¶44