So here, “Before I was afflicted I went astray, but now I keep Thy word.” It’s my own word that I pronounced before I came down into this world of “death.” Here is a vision that might aid the understanding of this mystery. She is not here tonight; she gave me the letter last lecture night. She said, “I had this vision. I was Infinite Spirit, and I knew I was Infinite Spirit. There was nothing but my Self. And I desired to go out into the world, although seemingly there was no other place - no ‘world,’ yet I desired to go out into the world, but I knew I had to have form to be seen, to communicate, and I made for myself a box - a long, elongated box - of wood. And then suddenly there was absolute darkness. You can’t conceive of the blackness and the restriction - a complete restriction, as though you could not concentrate or bring oneself to any greater point of restriction than that moment, as I found myself in the box. That was the cause of the blackness and the restriction and the contraction.997 ¶3