Eschatology

Tonight’s subject is eschatology. The term “eschatology” has been used only since the nineteenth century — something entirely new. But in the religious world they’re taking the word and throwing it all over the place, each thinking that they know when the end is coming, when the word really means the doctrine of the end of history. But it has nothing to do with secular history.1075 ¶1

Salvation history has already been brought to its climax and fulfillment, so it’s not a thing to do with this world, and the stars falling, and all these things that people are talking about. So when all these religious leaders get up and believe it, and say the signs are on us for the end of the world — that’s nonsense. It has nothing to do with anything about moons and stars and what not. It’s all about salvation history, and God has already brought that to climax and fulfilled it in the story of Jesus Christ. It is in the individual that the great dramatic events in the life of Jesus happened. The story of Jesus is an active parable which I can tell you, and you can tell another, in the hope that they will believe it, for the story needs to take place in the individual.1075 ¶2

Everything said of him actually happens in the individual. And when it happens, that is the abrupt end between this world — you can call it the supernatural world of God. They’re telling us — and this is funny — where men occur in the world, they wax, they wane, they die. There is total life, and they wax, they wane, and vanish, seemingly forever, until this salvation history takes place. And then they are cast in the central role; they are the star of the drama, and they will experience the story of Jesus Christ in a first-person-singular present-tense experience, and then they will know who Jesus Christ really is.1075 ¶3

So he is not coming from without. He is looking, dreaming the dream of life, and he will awaken and be that man. This is the Christ of whom I speak, and I am speaking from experience. I am not theorizing — than the speaker, when it erupted in me and completed itself in that same number of days as is stated in scripture, and it would take twelve hundred and sixty days for the four major events to take place. Earlier events take place too, yet they’re all related to scripture — in scripture. He said, even himself, “I have come to fulfill scripture.” What scripture? Concerning God’s plan of salvation.1075 ¶4

Now, you want to read this story of eschatology in the Bible — you’ll read it in the thirteenth chapter of the Book of Mark, and the twenty-fourth chapter of the Book of Matthew. In these chapters, they look at the buildings — these lovely buildings — and one calls his attention to the fact that these buildings were beautiful, and he said, “You see these buildings? They shall not leave one stone standing upon another; every stone shall be cast down.” “When will this be? When will it take place?” And he told them that there will be false prophets, false teachers who were coming into the world and say, “I am Christ.” Do not believe them, though they perform wonders, in the hope that they will mislead and lead astray, if possible, even the elect. “I have told you all things beforehand.”1075 ¶5

At the end of the play, I intend to pay [play?] for you, and I tell you that you saw it as something from without, and that I tried to persuade you that what you have just seen is a play that will unfold in you, and you will be cast in the starring role, whether you believe it or not. That’s entirely up to you. But I’ll show you the play, and having seen the play, then I will try to tell you what it means.1075 ¶6

This is God’s plan of redemption, God’s plan of salvation, and everyone will be redeemed, because it is only God redeeming himself. It is God who came into the world of death, and it is God who departs from this world after his purpose has been fulfilled. And the purpose of the descent into the world of death is to expand himself. His wisdom must expand. He is not omniscient — there would be no way to live if he were everything now. His power will be expanded, because he is not omnipotent. Therefore everything is an expansion, and to reach that expansion he first must contract and limit himself to the state called death. And this is the mystery of life through death: the seed falls into the earth and dies. It falls to be made alive. If it doesn’t, it remains alone. But if it dies, it brings forth much, and the bringing forth is the expansion of God, for we are the gods who fell through God.1075 ¶7

So every child born of woman is a son of God, the power of God, the wisdom of God, but completely forgetful of that fact, because he had to put on these garments of death. And then he will know that it’s about to be caught up in this world by these signs, and when the signs begin — and they are not spectators of the signs, they are the distinctive figures, they are the star in the entire play, and everything surrounds them — then they know who Jesus Christ is. “If anyone says to you, ‘Lo, here is Christ,’ do not give heed, because that is another Christ. If I say, ‘Look, there it is,’ I’m showing you another; there is no other Christ than the Christ in you.”1075 ¶8

God actually became man that men may become God. So if there is any Christ other than that universal Christ — that he was crucified and done to death within man — that Christ is a false Christ, and a false peace, taught by those who tell you of a Christ who is going to come from without, and tell you of another Christ who came two thousand years ago. The story is an active power.1075 ¶9

So when it erupted in Paul, these are his words to the Galatians, and scholars all agree that the Letter to the Galatians is the first New Testament book written, approximately fifty years A.D. They consider that letter the oldest of the New Testament writings. And in it he turns to the Galatians and says, “O foolish Galatians, who has bewitched you, before whose eyes Jesus Christ was publicly portrayed as crucified? Let me ask you only this: did you receive the Spirit by works of the law, or by hearing with faith? Are you so foolish, having begun with the Spirit, are you now ending with the flesh?” Well, the whole vast Christian world, and those who hear the Christian history, have ended with the flesh, for they think in terms of a fleshly Jesus Christ. And this is not a question of being at all.1075 ¶10

While I walk this earth as a being of blood and flesh, in me, in an entirely different realm, the plan of salvation erupts, which abruptly cleaves this space-time section from an eternal world of salvation. When these signs occur in you, we all know this is the end of your history in this world — no more dying, no more being restored alive, having gone through the gate of death only to wax and wane and then to be restored again and continue the journey. In reality, when these things begin to happen in you, you are at the end of history.1075 ¶11

But everyone will be redeemed. I don’t care what he has done in this world, foreign or otherwise — killed millions of innocent people and erupted the whole world, or a monster like a Stalin — he still is God, playing that part in the great investment of this world. So we all forget who we are. We look upon ourselves projected and see others, and we find them as enemies to our little ones, our little desires. But every soul served as these characters did, but they are redeemable — not one can remain unredeemed, for it would be God losing himself.1075 ¶12

God is the greatest power in the universe, and that God is your own wonderful human imagination. That is God. But man doesn’t know it while he’s in the state, and moves through event after event in the secular world. He hears the story, and the men who are now self-appointed to tell it do not know it, and they teach a Christ of the flesh. And he tells you, “I am born not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God.” This second birth that will take place in you is born in that manner — it is born from above. And then you were actually placed in the tomb, and until one priest placed you in the tomb — no one took your life; you gave it up yourself. You were the God who made the decision, and you and I collectively agreed on this adventure for the expansion of ourselves, which is simply the human skull, an immense cave we lie down in, and there we entered — collectively — this great dream of life. We are the gods who came down, and we are the gods who will one day enact the drama of salvation within us.1075 ¶13

Now, when will it happen? “Of your children — of that scripture — no one knows, no, no one.” No need to talk about the quality is yourself, but you don’t believe us yet, because when it begins to happen you will discover you are the Father — you are God the Father. It is something entirely different. We are departing from this world again by reason of these events that unfold within us. And it only takes three and a half years from the first eruption, which is resurrection, until you find yourself — this describes it: “We shall all be changed, in a moment — not a few of us, all — in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet shall sound, and we shall awake from the dead.”1075 ¶14

Well, that’s totally a beautiful imagery — no one is sounding a trumpet. The word “trumpet” means, by definition, reverberation. If you think you’ve had a vibration in your body, you might not have felt this — one moment an electrical current, you might have had, and survived it, and you might have had the experience of an intense vibration that you survived. But wait until this happens. When this happens, you have never in eternity had such a reverberation — your whole being reverberates. And that this is it — this must be a massive reverberation. This is what they mean when one actually dies. Instead of dying, for the first time you begin to live, or you begin to awake. And when you awake, you awaken in your skull to discover that your skull is a tomb — a sepulchre in which you will be buried, and you entered it voluntarily. “No man takes away my life; I lay it down myself. I have the power to lay it down, and the power to take it up again.”1075 ¶15

This is your story. You volunteered for the experiment, and you actually, deliberately, entered Golgotha, which is your own skull. And you don’t know that you’re there. You think you’re on the outside. You wash your body, and you look into the mirror, and the other man is reflected, and you do everything for another man — if you help him make a dollar, that he may have something tomorrow — and you struggle in this world, this outer world, and yet you are dreaming it. You are in your own skull. You are the immortal God in your own skull, dreaming this dream of life.1075 ¶16

And when you decide that you have finished the dream, you play all the parts — oh, you play everything in the world. You play the decent person, all right, and the one who is not considered the decent person. You played the harlot, and you played the lovely mother superior. You’re a bishop, the wonderful pope, or the bishop, the holy man in a new place — your favorite priest, and the judge who is passing judgment on the people. You’ve played any big part in the world, and no one is going to escape playing them all — the gods. No one can hear you asking what is the last part you want to play, because no one knows the order in which you play them, but you will play all the parts, and only so many forms. And he brings it to a limit of one hundred and forty-four thousand modifications of the twelve major characters. But you’ll wake up, and if you haven’t played them, you’re going to play them, because you will not be awakened from this life until you have played them. But no one is going to keep you in this world beyond that last character. And when you reach it, suddenly you know who Jesus is, and he never was another.1075 ¶17

So if anyone ever tries to tell you, “Look, God is Jesus Christ,” don’t believe them. Well, here it is — they could perform wonders, do all kinds of things, but don’t believe anyone who points outside of you as Jesus Christ. In you is your own wonderful human imagination. So don’t go by any sign in the world. This is a marvelous thing — in our land today, looking forward to our boys landing on the moon, I think it’s true, and I am concerned, and I placed myself right next to that TV on Sunday to watch that boy descend, or the two of them. And that’s my thrill, to watch it, probably because I’m an American by adoption, and my wife and my children are Americans, but I am of the human race — that’s man.1075 ¶18

But that’s not eschatology. It has nothing to do with the coming to the end of this — you and I are redeemed from this world by a series of events, and these events are recorded as events in the life of Jesus Christ. But it is in the individual that these majestic dramatic events in the life of Jesus happened — happen in us, but individually.1075 ¶19

You are too wonderful to have it happen collectively. You are a unique being, and no one can take your place in the eternal temple. And that temple is not something that looks like this — it is a body, a person, a real man, a living man, not of humanity, believe it or not. It is a man, and that man is full of love. Behold his presence, and it’s a man, and you can’t think of anything but love in the presence of this man.1075 ¶20

And that man is the risen Lord, and we are called out of this world, one by one, to be incorporated into that body. But then we are living stuff — we are returned from the world of death, and in us we are life-giving spirits, without loss of identity. We are taught: forever there is one living body, that is one Spirit, that is one law, that is one God and power of all. It’s a mystery, and the world teaches it as secular history, and it’s not secular history. So when you hear these names, you’re highly amused, hearing someone speaking of this, and it looks like the aim, and he hopes you’ll be here when Jesus comes, when we come to know who Jesus is.1075 ¶21

And so when some lady told me the other night that I was most cruel to mention a certain person’s name — a person who is highly regarded in his own eyes — I mentioned him, saying, I thought of the words of Lincoln, and Lincoln said, “To sin by silence when we should protest makes cowards out of men.” And she thought what he has to say must be true, but she doesn’t know the first thing about the mystery of Jesus.1075 ¶22

So his friend spends fifteen or twenty million dollars a year publicizing himself and his work, so his name is well known, and there are leaders who believe in him. But he was, in his cause, a three-dollar vehicle, and why must I restrain the impulse to tell you he doesn’t know Jesus Christ? And his ministry — Jesus Christ is an active parable, I could play. We have no such research; we have found no evidence for the historicity of a man called Jesus, and yet it’s the truest story ever told. It happens in man, and our evangelists are all unknown. These days they are anonymous — Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John — there are no records as to who Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John really were.1075 ¶23

It was their own experience: when the time fully came, that which was planned before the world began, to erupt in man — and by “man” I mean generic man, male and female — it began to erupt, and then they knew the mystery of salvation, the mystery of redemption. So I’m telling you what I know from experience, and if you should forget it, read the Gospels, and everything said of Jesus you will need to experience in a first-person-singular present-tense experience, and that is eschatology — that is the end of the journey in this world.1075 ¶24

You were told in scripture: “You are in a world that is strange to you, and you will be enslaved for four hundred years,” and then they shall come out with great possessions. Now, that’s all — that’s a foreshadowing, not altogether conclusive or immediately evident, so I tell you that story, but what does it mean? These are words spoken in scripture as being uttered by the Lord to one called Abraham, the father of the volunteers. So he goes into a land that is not his own, a strange land, and he’s a stranger there, and he’s enslaved there for four hundred years. My four hundred years — you must first understand that in the Hebrew alphabet every letter has a numerical value as well as a symbolic type. Well, the numerical value of the last letter of the Hebrew alphabet, the letter Tav — there are twenty-two letters, and then there are five finals that repeat five of the original twenty-two, but basically there are twenty-two — Tav has the numerical value of four hundred, and the symbol of that letter is a cross.1075 ¶25

And the only cross on which the Lord was ever crucified is this: the human fall — that is the cross. And this is a strange world to God, in the sense that it is a world of guess, and God is the God who is living — but there was the challenge: not to pretend that he had died, but to die actually, coming and taking the form of death, which is man, and to go through the gate over there and experience that, and still be restored, and continue, and die again, and die again, and then finish on his predetermined plan to rise from it all, enriched beyond what he was prior to that — greater power, greater creative power, greater wisdom, greater everything than he had previously.1075 ¶26

So this is the plan, and the only Christ is that Christ, not a single little being that was born of a woman who didn’t know a man. They will repeatedly say, “I must take on the weaknesses of the flesh and all the limitations of that.” If I came in here and my earthly father didn’t know my earthly mother, that was something entirely different — I can’t teach anyone what I haven’t experienced. I had to be conceived, and so I came in just as every child, and at the end of the journey I had to awaken within my own skull, and then experienced the entire story of Jesus in the first-person-singular present-tense experience. Yet doubt that? Not one momentarily — no. You are, and one day you’ll awaken, and when you return at the end of the journey, you and I knew each other before we came down — we will be brothers then again, and in spite of what we think of each other in our dream land, we are still in love with each other, full of love, as sons of the Most High.1075 ¶27

And it takes us all, as sons of God, to form God. God is the leader of the gods, and we are the gods — we are the sons of God who came together by a definite, voluntary decision to enter into it. And then completely forgotten the power that is ours, and the reason that is ours. And many of us plead — choose to die of starvation rather than steal what we thought we didn’t have — when all along, all along, taking without any consciousness of stealing, for the real part of the thief and praise the Father of everything in this world. So — what of a man who’s done everything, forgiven, completely forgiven?1075 ¶28

I saw today’s New York Times — this survey was just completed, and they brought in their conclusions. These professors at some university received grants from some great foundations, and they investigated further ex-convicts — those who are now in small business, confessing what they’ve earned, net, ten thousand, twenty thousand, fifty thousand a year. That’s their confession. And then they said, you know, they have what all great business leaders need.1075 ¶29

They didn’t go so far as to say the great business leaders have it, because not all about to please anybody, there couldn’t be presidents, there couldn’t be this — now banks are asking nine and a half percent for a big loan, ten million dollars — but that’s nothing, they also want a piece of the action. They carry their own risk, and in the piece of the action they’re going to get their nine and a half percent on their ten-million-dollar bill — all that the enormous, usual — in other words, for one who takes no risk. And there are the big giants — adults — from the real singularity, as follows.1075 ¶30

So may I tell you: forgive everything, being — when you come to the very end and you see the plan, and see the entire thing as a pleasure, you too will say, “Father, forgive them, they know not what they do.” Or, I could not now have experienced the drama of the idiot if I hadn’t played the part of the user, where I demanded not only nine percent, but I got a hundred plus pieces of the action, and so I can forgive it.1075 ¶31

And so the present conclusion is: there had to be — and they are in business, in a small way, and today a small business is the most difficult thing in the world. How will you survive? But they have new help because of their ex-convict contacts, and they have that power to be independent, like all big businessmen — they want to be independent, they want to stand on their own feet, and venture, and take chances. The average person won’t take a chance, and anyone who won’t isn’t qualified to lead big business — to lead big business or a big country, you’ve got to be willing; you have to have that courage to take a chance, and go broke, and then come back, get off the wheel, and work with someone else. But these ex-convicts, and the only difference between the ex-convicts that are investigated, whose story is now reported in today’s New York Times, and the big leaders of industry, is — one was caught, and the others were not.1075 ¶32

And these are the dramatic events in the life of Jesus, and all these events take place in the individual, as the individual’s personal experience. Taking note of who Jesus is: the word “Jesus” is the same as the word “Jehovah.” You spell it, God as out — but the root is Jehovah. So this is eschatology, in the truest sense of the word, and no one who misleads you by telling you that they’re seeing the stars, the signs of the age of the world — no, it is not the end of the world.1075 ¶33

This world is going on. This is a world of educative darkness, and you are going to take a soul and improve it to make it whole. This remains, as Scripture teaches, a world of educated darkness. So when you spend effort to make it easier for people, and it begins to make people good, could there yet be an equal apportion of good and evil in this world forever? So write it in this world — the living room — and you’ll get unbalanced; so you make all these good, but then others come, causing evil to balance it, for the name of the tree of knowledge of good and evil. That’s why we’re here, and we have to be, in order to be here — that we judge in our blindness, and do all these things in the world.1075 ¶34

If the world was all good, and everybody was so all together asleep, you wouldn’t be here. And then I tell you there’ll be no contrast whatsoever — a new note of the experience properly, and experiencing it, is not only a very pleasant one, than those who think themselves so good and so holy and so sweet, and you wonder what it’s all about. No — give me another — sometimes you have to watch the look in someone’s eyes. They’re more excited, or more fun in the world. You keep your mind high and dwell on noble things, and keep the noble things going, but don’t try to rub off on others.1075 ¶35

It’s all part of a school system; we are here to make this happen. It’s for the reading of it, and everyone will come to believe it — everyone is going to come out.1075 ¶36

I will become to them ugly, odd, a stranger — you take off the mask, I take off the mask, and I notice — I knew him — it doesn’t matter, I mean eternity, and we really love each other as we could never know or love on earth, because we will love — itself we were God, and God is all God. So no one on earth can ever love anyone through these masks comfortably, because a lot we have — when the mask comes off, because Mark came first — the Bible’s second book in the New Testament, but chronologically it was the first of the gospels — let us read the twenty-fourth chapter — “the beautiful, now see the buildings,” he said — “not one stone will be left standing upon another.”1075 ¶37

Beautiful imagery — “one of these buildings” — no, but on the twenty-first day of December in the year nineteen fifty-nine, came my discovery of the fatherhood of God. This vision was mine. I saw all the buildings, beautiful buildings, tall buildings, and one is going down before my eyes, are falling, are falling to the ground, leaving not one stone upon the other, and I know that’s really next — that’s going next — and I saw three, three, four buildings in my imagination, my vision, and everything started leaving not one stone. It is imagery — beautiful images — but what were the buildings, what did they signify?1075 ¶38

The beliefs by which I lived. When all of these — the beliefs by which a man lives — these temples fall to the ground, I related, in a physical Jesus, that’s what my father taught me. I loved the dear He’s-gone from this world, but the love has not decreased because of his physical absence. I think of Mother dear, I can’t conceive of a day that he enters into my mind in the same loving way that she did when she was here in the flesh — they’re alive to me. My mother taught me that story, but I didn’t realize that the story was only an active parable, and my mother didn’t — she would have deceived me, but she hadn’t experienced it. So when it happened in me, I understood that the story is not a secular story, it’s a supernatural story marking the end of man’s journey in the world. And when it happens in him, he knows who Jesus is. Therefore all these beliefs by which you live symbolize structures — powerful structures — and these are the buildings, the beliefs by which I lived. But I can no longer accept these external concepts of scripture, then the external world collapsed, leaving not one stone upon the other — everything came tumbling down, and that all took place where they needed.1075 ¶39

So the chapter begins: “they see these buildings, these beautiful buildings,” and then he responds, “not one stone will be left standing upon another.” And then they tell him, “when will these things happen, Lord?” And then he tells them about false prophets and the false teachers that will come, claiming, “I am Christ” — do not believe them. And they will come with all strange tricks and will perform certain miraculous events in the world. I assume this: anyone who turns you to the outside and points to someone on the outside as Christ, forget it — he doesn’t know Christ.1075 ¶40

So when you take a picture of him, there is not one account in scripture; the person of the individual is not described, there is no description of Jesus in scripture. Why? Listen to these words: “he does not yet appear, but we know that when he appears we shall be like him.” Does he look like — the word “picture,” the people think, or the painting you see on the wall, or the little icons — and if you’re honest with yourself, you will say, “no, that’s not me.” It is not just like you — that is not Christ.1075 ¶41

It is you that is Christ, and there is no other public life. That is the great story of scripture. So when you find him, you’re going to find yourself. And everything — the Son of God who revealed you as God the Father — he was standing for you, and you will know you can be his son, and he will know that you are his father, and when you see him, you go back into the scripture and find the true Son of God, that is the personification of all the generations of my ancestry, and all its princes — it has been a way that one being stands before you who represents all the generations, and all these ancestors. And then, as a result of that convention, he stands before you a father, and you know you’re his father — he is the result of your journey.1075 ¶42

And so when we do it for them, you’re God the Father, but no one can take it and convince you that you are — you have to experience it. So I’m counting on the signs that will come, and you will act up because you cannot possibly deny them. There they are — I mean, if I let them go forward and teach their false doctrines about the coming of Jesus, and appoint some sign in heaven saying “this is the time for it to come” — no one knows the hour, only the Father.1075 ¶43

And what is the Father? “Call no man on earth father,” because you have but one Father, and he is in heaven, and the kingdom of heaven is within you. That’s where it is: “call no man on earth father.” And he is invisible, and the kingdom of heaven is within — have you read the words yet? All these people, these false teachers, insist on your calling them Father, and therefore — but you see, I can speak — because I can speak with authority, because my authority is based upon experience. I have experienced the mystery of Christ, and so I am not theorizing, I do not speak of it secondhand. So when someone challenges — my wife would say, “well, go on and charge it” — you’re only listening to a false doctrine when you point to some Jesus as a being of flesh born — not the best; it’s an entirely different birth. It’s a supernatural birth.1075 ¶44

Your return to heaven can only be accomplished by a birth to come, as told us in scripture: “except a man be born from above, he cannot enter the kingdom of heaven.” It’s impossible to return where — it is the government of flesh and God. Your day — no, I got it, at the very moment they call you — today you are restored to life in the garment, just like the other one, only young, not older, twenty years of age, nothing — no deep listening, no fear missing, no eyes — listening perfectly, restored. And you cannot express yourself in the sexual world — you marry virtue, just as you marry him, and you get over there too, until the time of the end. And when the time of the end comes, these eternal stories unfold within you.1075 ¶45

So there’s no speculation about this; sacred history has already reached this climax, and it’s been fulfilled. It’s not being changed — things are being changed, but not sacred history. That’s all done, and you will one day experience this sacred history, and you will know exactly who you are, and you are done.1075 ¶46

Now, I will not take back one word I’ll tell you, because I know what I’m talking about.1075 ¶47

It reads in the book — I like how he said, “no one told it to me” — never heard it, ever — “but it came through revelation of Jesus Christ.” That’s what he said — he was the very one who went up to destroy the entire concept, but it happened in him, and then he understood it was not the external worship of the law, the rituals and all the things that the churches teach. The will of you — I got nothing to do with that. When you come to connect with it, there’s no acquiring merit to getting to the kingdom — just wait for that moment. He died upon the grace that is coming to you, and the revelation of Jesus Christ, for this is the whole message, that it actually makes it wisdom to accept the burdens of this long dark night of time.1075 ¶48

So it seems a long life — yes, it is a long, dark night of ideas. I’ve been slain for about four hundred years, by four hundred equivalent years, just as long as I were, because — but I’m promised that at the end of the four hundred, in the ending of the [wedding — reckoning] of the cross, I will come up with enormous possessions, far greater than what I possessed when I first volunteered into the world. And everyone is going to come out. Doctors, when you return, as the Lord — about any questions?1075 ¶49

So I would not say that he can’t recover — I wouldn’t say that, no, I would not say that at all. I never led a modest life today, quiet, modern, love, small income, from my interests, in what I’m doing, for I’m self-employed. I take off, voluntarily, between three and four months a year, because I find that I need this — on a lease, the corporation pays it, so it’s paid — I’m completely on my own, must take off any time, and I am simply self-supporting.1075 ¶50

Well, all right, I’m in a modest, very quiet, and modest inside, and yet I have a reminiscence of an experience — beautifully furnished, everything in it was a museum piece, and yet, conscious that I was up there just for a minute to say it was functioning, a full complement of service. I can see my daughter, I can see all the gardeners that I had, I can see my secretary and his assistant, I can see the chefs — I was a bachelor — I can see it even — I will tell you, in my imagination, see all these things always taking place.1075 ¶51

So I return, in my imagination, to this — and although we believe so beautifully, and they always have — the Lord is back — not meaning God, they call me by the title, “oh, lord” — this is how people speak, people here in the world, “lord” so-and-so. Well, today I was their master, their lord — not in the sense of being God, just completely a man with a title called lord. And I recall all the wonderful things that I possessed, and it was decadent — I didn’t grow with all my wealth, I simply could indulge myself, and no matter what I wanted, I could grant it, because I had it.1075 ¶52

And that I recalled deliberately walking out of that place and not returning, and left it all behind me. If I had everything that money could buy, and I bought only the best, and my servants were beautifully trained, they’re not a disturbance — they were the highest, either secretary, everybody, in their own department, got there with my service, and I had a full complement of servants in my home, a full staff in my garden. I walked out and never returned.1075 ¶53

So I have a bigger memory in this world, and a season of having happiness, meant that I came back in this time. I came here, in a world of poverty, a father of the world, and raised in Germany. There were twelve, or two died at work, and so our family always at thirteen, because my grandmother lived with us, and he had little, and so I came into that environment. I needed that environment, and that was the last environment. In my British life, I played across before — I thought in this world to return to my office, and I’ll return, like the prodigal son, to find that I am, in defense, beyond my wildest dreams, by a recent adventure.1075 ¶54

Now, all the sons came up, by the way — the first one who came down represents the Elohim — is unaware of limitation. The second one volunteered and took a chance of remaining, grandly living in a world of death, but if he didn’t — and he survived, and could get back — he would be enhanced beyond the wildest dream. Those who did not come out do not share that though — he then used on a higher level of creativity.1075 ¶55

So I have a very vivid life, and see it so clearly in my mind’s eye — modest, but fortunate for me, my wife goes along with me, she makes no excessive demands on my purse. In fact, I don’t have any debt, so if I have anything, she knows what I don’t, because she has everything in itself. I can’t really run away — when I leave home, I said, “now, may I have too long?” “Yes.” Thank you. A week, and then that’s why — I said, “what have I done? Nothing — this is love.” Oh, this is a shock — I said, “what am I going to do for money next week?” Then rent — “you know that’s not my problem.” So — but continue the argument — he said, “well, now, I can see he doesn’t understand the facts of life.”1075 ¶56

So bring your nephew — “you’re full of courage, and do all kinds of things,” I was saying — seventeen. So he gave me an advance, spring over — Macy’s, he said — “he doesn’t understand America’s rules, so give him a challenge.” So I was getting, I think, twenty-two, at the store — and then from then on I worked for myself.1075 ¶57

So I became, under the heading of these ex-convicts, that refused to work for another — they had it all within themselves, and they wanted freedom and independence, all the qualities that the same big business leaders need — and it helps. I was against them.1075 ¶58

I ran an elevator, worked as a bus boy, putting things away, and I saw all the little tricks of the trade. I saw how they operate, because, as a bus boy, you see things. And so, unfortunately, I didn’t have really white honey on display — I should have kept the bin filled, but I didn’t have it. So the salesman who took the order came back and said, “the lady of the house, she can’t have any honey but Lizzy brand white honey, and you didn’t do your job by keeping the bin filled.” So, get one up quickly.1075 ¶59

Well, the little white container, and the restaurant funny thing was the same body, brought unmarked by the carload, and the girls rolled in the mini bike, which I was — ten cents four rolls in the red star and shone senseless, so it took off one red star and rolled into the right to decide, and she was satisfied, because you paid ten cents more for it, and that’s how big business operates. For some customers who cannot buy a decent copy, because they put up happy in themselves — the inmate knowledge of taste, their taste buds are gone.1075 ¶60

Someone once told a story: if you make a ring in England, and you took a galaxy and jammed it until a piece of cut glass, and put on it the price of a great diamond, and then put that tag on the cut glass or the diamond, the average person, not understanding, in Europe, having no gem knowledge at all, would buy it based upon the tag — the rich would attack us and say, “the price of the great diamond,” because they do not know values, they can only see tags.1075 ¶61

And business operates upon that — business: one is fifteen cents more than this one, because someone wants to pay more, who cannot afford a hundred dollars a day, they can afford a hundred a day. So they come to these places — we supply them all, so they get no better meal than the place that charges ten dollars a day. So when you go to their dinner, well, it’s a nice dinner, no question about it, but you’re paying me a hundred dollars, and we are the suppliers of all the levels.1075 ¶62

And people, knowing their weakness — in the human heart, they’re capable — I saw them, darlings, come down from L.A., and they come down with all their big dark glasses on, and they’re incognito, and there’s no one in Barbados near the mainland who did not become aware, though incognito — but there’s a source of it, before the day was out, that everyone knew who the real person was. They couldn’t stand being not known — with all their big black glasses and all these things, I remember these visitors, but “don’t tell me you don’t know who I am.”1075 ¶63

Anyway, my dear, this earth does not terminate at the point where my senses cease to respond when I am dreaming tonight. And the world calls it gone in this world, and this cremated one has turned to dust — this frequency is gone, no — the world is just like this, it’s terrestrial, solidly real, and the body that we will live in is flesh, and God will put on the new garment. That’s not wrong, either.1075 ¶64

We spent thousands of years in the journey — four hundred resulting in the symbolic freedom of the cross, but it consisted of four hundred years — thousands of years we have evolved into the flesh, and this earth appeared in sections of time. We are restored to life in bodies of flesh and blood, and they’re real, solid, and then go through the struggles, just as the people here, and there is meaning, thinking all things there, and we know — and died. It’s not just a photograph on the moon, as we see a section in time — that section in time only represents at the moment, time, but this earth is purpose, and they’re all taking place here, now.1075 ¶65

This earth — the millions will die, and the friends who seem unreal, on earth, is this earth, but a different section of time. For instance, that is still taking place. It seems crazy — we think that’s gone, but it hasn’t gone.1075 ¶66