I don't think a lecture went by that he didn't say that I am not theorizing, I am not speculating. I have experienced scripture from the beginning to the end, and it's all true, and you're going to have the same experience.

Neville (as quoted): "I am not theorizing, I am not speculating. I have experienced scripture from the beginning to the end, and it's all true, and you're going to have the same experience."

I’m sure you remember his experience of seeing the large quartz and as he looked at it, it fragmented. It broke into a million pieces and then as he looked at it contemplating it, it suddenly reassembled as his own glorified form as Buddha in the lotus posture. So, he was looking at his very own being.

his truly great experience was a discovery that he is the father of David. And he told all of us that we are to have the same experience. We are going to awaken as God the Father. ... every lecture Neville said, I am not speculating, I am not theorizing, I have awakened as God the Father, and every one of you is going to have this experience.

Neville (as quoted): "I am not speculating, I am not theorizing, I have awakened as God the Father, and every one of you is going to have this experience."

Now just in case there should be someone here who did not hear him toward the end, I want to mention that his truly great experience was the discovery that he is the father of David and he told all of us that we are to have the same experience. We are going to awaken as God the Father. … every lecture Neville said, “I am not speculating, I am not theorizing, I have awakened as God the Father and every one of you is going to have this experience”.

Neville (as quoted): "I am not speculating, I am not theorizing, I have awakened as God the Father and every one of you is going to have this experience"

Neville repeatedly said, I'm not theorizing, I'm not speculating, I've experienced the whole book.

Neville (as quoted): "I'm not theorizing, I'm not speculating, I've experienced the whole book."

Now you know that Neville constantly compared his experience with Paul. He did everything but say, I am Paul. Paul was on the page. Neville was in history.

It must come to mind immediately that this was Neville's great theme, resurrection. He claims to have been resurrected in the spirit by seeing his son David.

I didn't tell it to Neville for a long time, because it was so grisly. Then, when he said from the platform, I love to hear that anyone has seen me die. One night I found it in Scripture, so I told him, and he said, Yes, I am Judas.

Neville (as quoted): "I love to hear that anyone has seen me die. [and, on being told the vision:] Yes, I am Judas."

all that time he was saying from the platform, I'd love to hear that you have seen me die. Well, I kept hearing him say this, but I still could not bring myself to tell him this awful dream which I had had.

Neville (as quoted): "I'd love to hear that you have seen me die."

Well the dream was so grisly that I simply couldn’t tell him and yet at that time he was saying from the platform, “I love to hear that you have seen me die”. Well I kept hearing him say this, but I still couldn’t bring myself to tell him this awful dream which I’d had.

Neville (as quoted): "I love to hear that you have seen me die"

I got on the phone and I called him. I got his wife on the phone too, on the extension. I wanted her to hear this. I told him the dream and I said, you're Judas. And he said, yes. Judas betrayed the messianic secrets. He went on to say, God entered this world by committing suicide. ... Neville went on to say, In the Orient, the honorable suicide is to disembowel yourself. ... Before Neville hung up, he said once more, Judas betrayed the messianic secret.

Neville (as quoted): "Yes. Judas betrayed the messianic secrets. ... God entered this world by committing suicide. ... In the Orient, the honorable suicide is to disembowel yourself. ... Judas betrayed the messianic secret."

I think some of you may remember the lecture some years ago when he talked about the dream, which one of the members of the audience had had, about his death as Judas, and at that time he explained that Judah is the great revealer because the word Judah comes from Yod, which in Hebrew is the word for hand.

And he said, do you want to hear my story? I said, yes. He said, Mrs. Murphy went off to Lourdes to see the holy relics, the crutches and the braces. ... So he opened it, he sniffed at it, he tasted it, and he said, Mrs. Murphy, this is not a bottle of holy water. This is a bottle of scotch. She said, down on your knees, man, and pray to the Holy Father. It's another miracle. So that is the way he announced his coming death, by telling a joke. I didn't get it.

Neville (as quoted): "Mrs. Murphy went off to Lourdes to see the holy relics, the crutches and the braces. ... Mrs. Murphy, this is not a bottle of holy water. This is a bottle of scotch. She said, down on your knees, man, and pray to the Holy Father. It's another miracle."

A few days before our dinner party I called him to tell him that I was having a very very high experience. … I said, “Neville, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that some kind of authority is going to be given to me. I don’t understand it, I certainly didn’t earn it” with that he broke in and he said, “No, it’s all a gift. “It’s all grace. And I said, “Well, that’s my story. And he said, “Do you want to hear my story? And I said, “Yes. … So, I am sure you’re not surprised that he announced his coming demise in the form of a joke.

Neville (as quoted): "No, it’s all a gift. It’s all grace. … Do you want to hear my story? … Mrs Murphy went off to Lourdes to see the Holy Relics … Down on your knees and pray to the Holy father it’s another miracle"

I spent his last day with him. Mrs. Goddard was very ill at the time. She was in the hospital. Neville was going to a dinner party, and I was going to drive him. Because he didn't want to disappoint his host, he left Mrs. Goddard in the hospital one more day.

On the way to the party, I told him about my experience downtown and feeling that we were deep in the heart of the woodland. He took a breath and let out a deep sigh and said, yes, and there are those who believe that no one ever returns from the woodland. I said, you mean brothers who haven't come in? And he said, yes. I said, you mean that you see the brothers who have not come into the story? He said, yes, I see them. I said, do you see the ones who have come out? He said, yes, and they are most exalted beings you could ever imagine. I said, well, and you see all three? And he said, yes, I see all three.

Neville (as quoted): "Yes, and there are those who believe that no one ever returns from the woodland. ... Yes, I see them. ... Yes, and they are most exalted beings you could ever imagine. ... Yes, I see all three."

After dinner, at this last dinner party, he suddenly stood up and he said, we're going. I'm taking you home, Frank. So we left. When we got to his place, I stayed just a short time. Neither one of us had anything else to drink that night. I went home. I retired early.

Neville (as quoted): "We're going. I'm taking you home, Frank."

the last day that I was with Neville, on the way to the party. He gave a message in an offhand way, which I considered to be his last revelation about his doctrine. ... And I said, Neville, I just got back from downtown, and oh, how deeply are in the heart of Woodland. ... Then Neville took a deep breath and let out a sigh. He said, Yes, and there are those who believe that no one ever returns. And I said, do you see them, the brothers who haven't come in? And he said, yes, I see them. ... And I said, do you see those who have returned? He said, yes, and they are the most exalted beings you can ever imagine.

Neville (as quoted): "Yes, and there are those who believe that no one ever returns. ... Yes, I see them. ... Yes, and they are the most exalted beings you can ever imagine."

So on the way to the hospital I told him about the dream I had the night before, and that I had awakened with great anxiety, and he said to me, It's wonderful that the depths of your being have given you a warning.

Neville (as quoted): "It's wonderful that the depths of your being have given you a warning."

he gave me the first piece of bread and cheese. He said, Here, Frank, take this. So I took it, and just before we ate, my hostess asked me if I would like to have another martini. I said, Certainly. And Neville said, Wait. Here, Frank, take this. And he took his unfinished martini and poured it into my glass. So I finished his drink. ... Then after dinner, he suddenly stood up and said, We're going, and with that we left.

Neville (as quoted): "Here, Frank, take this... Wait. Here, Frank, take this... We're going."

So, on the way to the hospital I told him about a dream I’d had the night before and then I had awakened with great great anxiety and he said to me, “It’s wonderful that the depths of your being have given you a warning”.

Neville (as quoted): "It’s wonderful that the depths of your being have given you a warning"

When we arrived at the party the first thing we wanted was a martini. So, I got mine and he got his and then he gave me the first piece of bread and cheese. He said, “Here Frank, take this” so I took it and then just before we ate my hostess asked me if I would like to have another martini, I said, “Certainly” and Neville said, “Wait. Here Frank, take this” and he took his unfinished martini and poured it into my glass. So, I finished his drink. … Then after dinner he suddenly stood up and he said, “We’re going” and with that we left.

Neville (as quoted): "Here Frank, take this … Wait. Here Frank, take this … We’re going"

A few days before our dinner party, I called him to tell him that I was having a very, very high experience. I couldn't account for it, but that my consciousness was going higher and higher and higher, and I said, Neville, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that some kind of authority is going to be given to me. I don't understand it. I certainly didn't earn it. With that, he broke in and said, No, it's all a gift. It's all grace. And I said, Well, that's my story. And he said, Do you want to hear my story? And I said, Yes.

Neville (as quoted): "No, it's all a gift. It's all grace... Do you want to hear my story?"

I hesitated to tell him because you know how dignified he was. But I told him anyway, and his eyes just danced because he knew. He knew Scripture so thoroughly that he knew that he was the fool.